Atisutoakino

Yes guys I just thought I'd be nice and let everyone know what's going on my life because I'm just that great of a person just cause I'm never on Deviantart anymore, forreals.

Well this week's been chaotic, typical, but this friday was just WOW. It all started after school when I had to stay after for Student Council and they made us prepare a lot of things for homecoming. ALKDSJSLDJ Me and my friend Katie had to buy balloons from KROGERS which was very odd adventure, its for a homecoming party. (I won't even get into it) In shorter terms...
-We played on the swings
-We broke into the Nature Center
-Lost Katie's car keys IN the nature center
-Almost got ran over by 102983 cars jaywalking with balloons in our hands
-Her car almost exploded
-and we almost crashed into a parked car
And guess what I recorded every second of it on my video camera

I hung out a lot with my date Alex. But then someone else was also flirting with me. I feel so terrible. It's like I'm going with both. It wasn't my fault! The other guy liked me. But I had more fun with Alex he was nice and sweet and played in the playground late at night. Except he doesn't cuddle with me. Or hug me and do stuff I expect a boy should do. KALJDKLJADSLJLDSAJLDSLKKSADJLKJDSLJLDSJ Stupid boy. He doesn't know what he should do. Well I should teach him because it's bugging me.

kind of wish Alex was like that guy who lead me on (see previous journal =] ) The guy who lead me on WAS EXACTLY LIKE SASUKE just with glasses and not a ninja. He was calm, aloof, cool, acted like he knew everything, AND was a huge ass jerk who left me (just how Sasuke left Konoha) Kay this is pretty sad I'm relating a boy to a cartoon character..SHUTUP. =] Whatever I'm over him... kind of, sort of... I have Alex so LAKJDLKAJSDLJKLASDJAHHH

I really hate this. I should just study the Declaration of Independence or Geometrical equations instead of all this boy drama.

PEACE

because it's my birthday! You guys should do something special for meeee because after the whole incident I'm still slightly drone on the whole situation. (if you don't know check my last journal entry)

Oh well I'm moving on. Or trying at least. I just want everyone to know that fact. But I love everyone who replied and helped me through! If I could I'd give you all a digital huggle... =]

I haven't been artsy lately. Its kind of difficult with all these problems in my life lately! It's just one after another and there seems to be no pause in between not even to take a breathe. It doesn't matter anymore because I'm taking everything negative that's happened to me to something positive.

Thanks, I'm not kidding.

I'm never lucky in my life aren't I? it seems everything I do or attempt ends up exploding in my face. For instance here's a GREAT EXAMPLE!

I thought I had the life and luck this weekend but oh no was I oh so ever wrong. If you guys read my previous journal it was mainly about a guy who I've been crushing on. I recently found out that he liked me back and we hung out this weekend and... *insert whatever you think we did here because...yeaaaa* And no I did not have sex. Stop assuming that you nasty dev-minds =]

So I come to school Monday thinking we're good friends and all but he doesn't approach me! And all I did was slightly bump into him gesturing a quick hello. Then the next day he doesn't talk to me again! And so I decide to start a conversation but it was extremely awkward. I mean EXTREMELY AWKWARD! He didn't seem he wanted to talk to me because he responded in one word as in "Yes" "No" "Mhm" "Yea"

Then I find out he talks to MANY girls. He has MANY girl pals. But I didn't think of it like that because a boy CAN have girl friends. But then I find out he likes to butter girls up and I find out he's been talking to all these GIRLS like in a VERY flirtatious way. but HE JUST KISSED ME THIS WEEKEND! How could he do all that when he just KISSED ME THIS WEEKEND.

I've been lead on in the past. But never like this. We talked for hours and he made me feel special. He would stare at me in the hallways and write me poetry. Then he kissed me and now he does THIS! He ignores me like we didn't do anything when in reality WE DID! He's such an asshole and I hate him so fucking much! How could you lead on someone like that. I was basically a fling for him! He's such an ass! I FUCKING CUNT that's what he is. That's what you call a player.

I'm like super convinced I've just been used. I feel cheated. I feel disgraced. I'm a total mess. He lead me on. And he USED ME. He touched my body. He whispered things in my ears. but they were all lies. Lies covered in sweet sugar.

FUCK HIM FORREAL

I'm pretty happy. I swear my life is based on luck and god. I just had the best weekend...EVER =]




I don't feel like typing up a long complex journal about how awesome my weekend was. If you're extremely curious you'll just have to note me. Kayyy <3